Yellow fields of flowers

I took a little tour to Bad Landensalza with my two German(y) besties, Dianne and Sarah yesterday. We went to a small little tour that was in full bloom and headed to a spa (which are super cheap here). We took a little girls day off and just went relaxing.

However, the town isn't what I want to tell you about. While going there I was sitting on the train (I love train rides... no other better way to reflect than a long ride staring out the window at the country side) I noticed all the fields of rapeseed (makes canola oil) and I realized that I have literally spent the past month and a half regretting my study abroad program and being disappointed in it that I was letting that override the fact that here I am LIVING in Europe. Yes, honestly, this program isn't what I envisioned or what I wanted, but I.am.living.in.Europe. Like shut up, Amy. It was the first time I got the "you are really going to miss it here" feeling.

In life things are going to disappoint you and you are going to have regrets. I really wish I could have just stayed at my internship (which was literally the best experience ever) for the whole six months, but I couldn't. I am doing this program and being challenged a ton (well not by the school, that is kind of a joke). I will never have this opportunity again and while it is good to vent frustrations, I had let them come in the way of enjoying and making the most of this once and a life time opportunity. Dumb.

“And why do you worry about clothes? See how the lilies of the field grow. They do not labor or spin. Yet I tell you that not even Solomon in all his splendor was dressed like one of these. If that is how God clothes the grass of the field, which is here today and tomorrow is thrown into the fire, will he not much more clothe you, O you of little faith? So do not worry, saying, ‘What shall we eat?’ or ‘What shall we drink?’ or ‘What shall we wear?’ For the pagans run after all these things, and your heavenly Father knows that you need them. But seek first his kingdom and his righteousness, and all these things will be given to you as well. Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own." Matthew 6:28-34