because I cannot say that being abroad is the coolest experience ever and so much fun and everything is so great and blah blah blah blah. Or maybe I have more courage because I can be vulnerable and honestly say I have never encountered a harder experience in my life? Maybe it is because I am here by myself? Or maybe because of the program I chose? Whatever the reason, all I know is that today was one of those let me count down my days type thing....
Sorry for the overwhelming depressing start to a blog post, but in all honest this week has been a huge challenge for me. There is just a lot going on with my housing and just still being uncomfortable and not knowing people. I have no doubt that it will get better and I will make friends and once I start my classes (Monday) and dance lessons (Monday) everything will fall into place, but I just don't know why people don't say more often how so very hard it is to do this.
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Hang strong Amy. Even in comparing your blog posts to conversations we've had in the past, it sounds like you're growing a lot and really learning hard lessons about faith. Consider this as a sacrifice for God and give it up to Him. But most importantly know that you are cared for. By God and by so many others. Take heart! Someone has already gone before you and conquered the world.
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P.S. Yes, parts of studying abroad suck. Hard core. You aren't the only one who got sick of feeling like you don't fit in easily or at all. Remember it comes in waves!
praying for you, sweet amy dear. i'm certain everything improves with dancing. to monday!
ReplyDeletepraying for you my dear. hope you got my email. you are on my heart.
ReplyDeleteoops that was from me! (Ashley P)
ReplyDeleteProverbs 3:5: "Trust in the Lord with all of your heart and lean not on your own understanding."
ReplyDeleteEasier said that done, but you've always been such a reflective woman--you will get to a point where you look back on this time as a huge time of growth. You're a woman of such faith and love for the Lord; he's teaching you some cool things it seems.
-Love from McAnderson
P.S. If you are lonely (disclaimer: after spending time with God of course), get on Skype and we'll hang out. I'll literally eat dinner with you even if it's not dinner time here. hehe. MUAH.
P.P.S. Thanks for the post card, love! I'm e-mailing you right now.