Outside my student dormitory window stands a tree. When I first got here the tree had barely any green to it. It was just beginning to bud, but it was beginning to bud in that sense that unless you took the time to look at it, you missed it.
I find it odd that in only 14 days my tree is covered in green. I almost wonder when that happened, but at the same noticed the difference every day.
This tree is one of those things that I have a really hard time explaining. It is a beautiful reminder that Spring is here and with Spring comes renewal, revival, and life. Simultaneously it is a mirror. I look at it and I see me. Just as the Lord has loved and renewed this earth and my tree, so He is loving and renewing my soul. Just like my tree I have been awakened from a slumber. I have never been so alive. I feel every disappointment, hurt, joy, success, rejection so intensely. My soul is lying naked, unprotected in front of this world for the first time. Everything cuts through me and steals my breath away. I am an open book. I am a glass sheet. I am as transparent as a ghost.
Till this moment, I never knew myself.
amy, this is lovely. that kind of rawness can hurt, but how amazing to see and feel God at work so keenly!
ReplyDeletemiss your face. praying for you, sistah. xo